Lives Are Changed through the Living Waters Program

Living Waters is a Christ-centered discipleship/ministry program for men and women seeking healing in areas of sexual and relational brokenness; including relationship challenges, problems with intimacy, codependency, shame and self-hatred, hopelessness, abuse, pornography addiction, sexual addiction, promiscuity, unwanted sexual attractions, and gender identity challenges.

Our next program is starting October 12, 2026.


Here are some powerful testimonies from participants who had their lives changed through the power of Jesus Christ in the Living Waters program. They are used with the permission of the participants.


After 33 years of life, Living Waters has finally helped me learn to address the shame of my sexual abuse, learn to share with others, and lower my unhealthy defense mechanisms.
A male participant.

 

I love how the Holy Spirit brings such truth and is so gentle in His revelation.
A female participant.

 

After 33 years of life, Living Waters has finally helped me learn to address the shame of my sexual abuse, learn to share with others, and lower my unhealthy defense mechanisms. I no longer use my brokenness to defend the abused, taunted and teased child that suffered at the hand of shame.

Shame had crippled me by silencing my voice, then caused me to become a liar. Lying derived out of the need to hide and lock away vulnerability before others. The thing that helped me trust the Living Waters group was the safe space that it provided in feeling protected. Knowing that confidentiality agreements had been signed by all parties helped me open up to trusting others with my secrets and the courtesy would be returned in exchange. It taught me how to protect someone else’s trauma wound and life. I learned how to quiet myself to hear another’s pain, empathize and judge not, but to lead with love, understanding and support.

My group leaders have taught me the essence of what true community within the body of Christ looks and feels like. Healthy forms of accountability, being receptive to guidance and the wisdom of another who has gone before you, walked through the same fire of shame, burning away every unclean spirit and acknowledging the sin that took place in order to identify, grieve and give this shame of bondage to God. Now I am free

A male participant.


Coming to Living Waters, I was seeking revelation on why I was so content to be single. Looking to see if there were inner “lies” of past hurts. I was amazed at the things that were revealed in my heart that were there for my “self-protection”. I love how the Holy Spirit brings such truth and is so gentle in His revelation. I do not feel so self-protected and feel safer to trust my future to whatever He decides for me. Knowing He is safe, is so important to me.

A female participant.


I am a baby boomer. A product of the sexual revolution. My philosophy was, “No one tells me what to do!” I was a non-practicing Christian because of many slights from my religious upbringing, and the church’s lack of dealing with sexually abusive leaders.

About one year after college, I married my high school sweetheart. She was an atheist. I heard about not being unequally yoked, but, “No one tells me what to do!” She was amoral and quickly spurned me. She stated she didn’t love me and that was it. Our marriage lasted six months.

I turned to porn for entertainment and fantasy. I related love with sex. Never having true intimacy, until I met my second wife. We have been married for 43 years and have had many struggles with my porn addiction and unforgiveness from my first wife’s infidelity. I felt frustrated. I needed God’s forgiveness and love.

After taking the Living Waters program, I became aware of many misconceptions about relationships. The program has led me to Christ, my need to repent, turn aside my own thoughts and sins, and “fly right”. Restoring my relationship through the broken body of Christ, has led me to wholeness.

A male participant.


Joshua 4:19 marks something specific and profound. “On the tenth day of the first month the people went up from the Jordan and camped at Gilgal on the eastern border of Jericho.”

This is the moment when the Israelites cross over. They’ve been wandering in the desert for forty years. They’ve lost an entire generation to doubt and fear. But now – finally – they’re actually doing it. They’re crossing the Jordan and entering the Promised Land. They’re leaving behind the wilderness and stepping into abundance.

What gets me about this verse is the specificity. The tenth day of the first month. They camped at Gilgal. These aren’t random details. This is saying, “Mark this moment. Remember this place. You’re on the other side now.”

And I think about my own crossing. There wasn’t a single moment when I went from broken to healed. That’s not how revival works. It’s a series of small decisions, small steps. It’s saying yes to Jesus when everything in you is screaming no. It’s speaking your truth when silence feels safer. It’s showing up in community when isolation is your default. It’s letting people love you when you’re convinced you’re unlovable. It’s asking for help when pride says you should handle it alone.

But there WAS a shift. There WAS a moment – actually many moments – when I realized I’d crossed over. I wasn’t in the same place anymore. I wasn’t looking back at the Promised Land from the wilderness. I was standing in it. I was on the other side of the trauma. On the other side of shame. On the other side of self-hatred.

And the joy of that – let me tell you – it’s not just happiness. It’s resurrection joy. It’s the kind of joy that knows what darkness feels like and chooses light anyway. It’s the kind of joy that says, “I’ve been through hell, and I’m still standing. I’m still loving. I’m still believing. That’s not optimism. That’s faith.

This is a faith that Living Waters has helped me to reconnect with. The knowledge that I am no longer in the wilderness but have crossed over the Jordan into the Promised Land. To be whole in Christ Jesus.

A female participant.


I grew up in a large family with two brothers and two sisters on a 200-acre farm in the thumb area of Michigan. My father abused me physically to discipline me. The physical abuse started at five and went through my teens. My mother covered up the abuse and it was hidden from everyone, especially the church. Because of the abuse, I became a victim. This was easily seen by predators. When I was eleven, a family friend raped me several times. Instead of getting help for me or supporting me, my parents hid this rape. So, I hid it from myself for most of my life.

The trauma continued as I grew to adulthood. I was again raped by a coworker in my early 20s and I buried it deep and moved on. I wasn’t able to have relationships with men or women. The trust issues always got in the way. Then came my marriage when I chose a man just like my father. The abuse started early in our marriage. As I had children, my husband also physically abused them. I did my best to protect them, but my paralyzing fear of my husband held me back. I was scared of having to care for my sons on my own, so I stayed in the marriage for 22 years.

I accepted Christ at the age of 50. My oldest son left for college and he was the stabilizing factor. With him gone, my husband became more abusive. My husband thought that I was having an affair and attacked me. With God’s help, this gave me the courage to call the police. My husband was arrested. After a year of courtrooms, I was finally divorced and now ready to be on my own. That was twelve years ago and I am finally healing to the point where I can have friends and take care of myself. God has been the constant presence that has healed and grown me to where I am now, and I am so thankful.

A female participant.


If you or someone you love is struggling with sexual or relational difficulties, there is hope and healing through the power of Jesus Christ. Call us and ask about attending the next Living Waters program at (586) 739-5114.



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Holding Onto Jesus: Overcoming Homosexuality - James

James has been a friend of Reconciliation Ministries since he first attended Living Waters in 2018. He now serves as a member of our Living Waters leadership team. You can find more testimonies and recovery articles on the Reconciliation Ministries website at https://recmin.org/newsletter-archives.

When I was very young, I believed that there was something different about me. I remember back then that I knew that I didn’t match all the other boys in elementary. They liked to be rough and competitive and that created fear and anxiety in me. Even now, I don’t play sports because I can’t handle the rhetoric that occurs during the play battle. I quite clearly remember multiple times in my life thinking that somehow, I was born in the wrong gender. I was supposed to be a little girl and not a little boy.

While growing up, there was a moment with a childhood friend where we would play house. However, our playing turned into a scenario between the two of us where the things that happened turned the tide and solidified a deep longing and hunger for sexual intimacy with other boys. These interactions formed deep attachments in me for same sex longings. The deep longing often blinded me to reality and was a huge obsession. Overtime, I tried to satisfy my own needs by thinking that if I could just get the attention of, or be like the boys I idolized, that somehow I would become whole.

I remember in third grade setting on the front pew of my church and suddenly understanding that Jesus was reaching out his hand and asking me to trust Him. At that time, I was shy and didn’t go to the alter, but that night when we got home my mom and I talked about it and then I prayed and asked Jesus into my heart. The days and weeks that followed were freeing. As I look back, those days were also pivotal in that they created a deep anchor in me that would define which side of the same sex attraction battle that I would remain on.

Fast forward… It was during my twenties that I had the resolve that I would never act on my same sex attraction. Most of the times though I felt like I barely had the resolve. Admittedly, everything in my mind and body during those years yearned and hungered for that kind of encounter but the deep grounding I experienced formed a mysterious barrier between my desires and how I have acted on them. By the grace of God, I’ve not had sexual encounters with other men. But by no means was my life free of same sex desires and obsessions.

As I was getting older, there was a woman that I dated, fell in love with, and ended up marrying. She knew that I experienced same sex attraction. Early on we had a deeply satisfying and meaningful relationship. However, my same sex attraction was still a huge part of my life. For a while I was able to pretend and fake my way through life and present myself as what I thought was a full-fledged man, husband and believer in God. As the years went on however, our relationship disintegrated. In the end, we were going to adopt a child who experienced gender fluidity. In my mind I was totally okay with that because I felt like if God was able to bring me to where I was, then I would be able to love a child through his navigation of gender fluidity. Our church at the time would have also been a supportive environment; however, my wife didn’t think so. She leaned into the idea that her and our soon to be son would go to a church that was LGBTQ+ affirming. Due to the instability that I was experiencing in marriage and life, I ultimately had to give my vote to the adoption caseworkers that we couldn’t move forward adopting this child. That was the beginning of the end of the marriage, but was also a defining moment in my life between God and me.

As things were unraveling for me, I found myself in one of the largest battles of my life. How could someone I had been in a loving relationship with, and who I trusted, start thinking differently about God and church? I was caught between the battle of fighting same sex attraction and now being encouraged by the women I fell in love with to embrace it and even shift my beliefs and be gay. While we were separated, she encouraged divorce. In my wife’s view, she was freeing me to explore being gay. There were three days in our initial separation while my wife was encouraging me to be gay that I contemplated forgetting it all and just do it. However, I just couldn’t rationalize and forget about the anchor Jesus planted in me.

While I was in the middle of the storm of divorce and being tempted to dive into embracing being gay, my heart kept crying out to God for help. I knew that if there was a way to navigate this right, that God would have to do it. While crying out, God through His providence and grace placed it in my heart to search for some group or counselor that would help me navigate these storms and be faithful to God. That’s when I came across Living Waters program through Reconciliation Ministries. I signed up to go through the Living Waters program during the 2018-2019 season. Jesus met with me through Living Waters and the Living Water folks who know how to love hurting people like me. I learned about my sexuality with truth and grace and received the bolstering and support my heart desperately needed.

Building on the foundation that Living Waters provided, the Lord began to draw me out of faulty thinking that I learned and embraced during my formative years. Little by little, I’ve been challenged to turn away from harmful thinking that skewed my sexuality while also learning to understand the man I am in the context of my active relationship with Jesus. My heart was led again to go through Living Waters a second time which provided another transformative leap forward. The second season reinforced the truth of learning to live a sexually truthful and pure life for God. Out of this I’m learning to experience the reality of how the Truth will set you free and have true Peace and true Joy!!!

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Is God Calling You to More? Can You Trust Him?

This article was written by Dan Hitz, the director of Reconciliation Ministries of Michigan, Inc. He is a Licensed Professional Counselor in the State of Michigan specializing in helping men and women overcome sexual brokenness, sexual abuse recovery, and trauma. More articles and testimonies of overcomers are available on the Reconciliation Ministries website at https://recmin.org/newsletter-archives.

It was by faith that Abraham obeyed when God called him to leave home and go to another land that God would give him as his inheritance. He went without knowing where he was going. And even when he reached the land God promised him, he lived there by faith – for he was like a foreigner, living in tents.

Hebrews 11:8-9a NLT

Can you relate to Abraham – or Abram in his old life? You may have been perfectly content living your life when God called to you something deeper. Or maybe you weren’t content. Maybe you felt trapped by self destructive habits or the effects of abuse and didn’t see any way out. Maybe you can relate to Paul’s question in Romans 7:24, “Oh, what a miserable person I am! Who will free me from this life that is dominated by sin?” Is God in His mercy is calling you to leave the familiar and take a journey of trust into a deeper life in Him?

Sometimes in our journey, it’s not uncommon to wonder if God really cares. If I give up the familiarity of my gay identity and surrender my sexuality to Him, will He really come through with something better? If I give up my escape of pornography and sexual addiction, will He really help me cope with the pain that I’m avoiding? Maybe you’re afraid to leave an abusive relationship. Being humiliated and hurt everyday seems like an acceptable price to pay when you’ve been convinced that you’ll never be able to make it on your own. No one else seems to care about you. Does God?

The truth is that God does care. He won’t turn anyone away who comes to Him for help. He didn’t condemn the woman caught in adultery [John 8:1-11]. The Samaritan woman at the well was rejected by the community, but Jesus showed her love and compassion. He revealed Himself to her as the Messiah and gave her the honor of evangelizing the community [John 4:1-42]. Tax collectors were hated by the Jews, but Jesus called Matthew the tax collector to follow Him. Jesus didn’t reject sinners who came to Him for help. He showed them mercy. He was willing to endure the angst of the religious leaders who berated Him for having dinner at Matthew’s house with “his fellow tax collectors and many other notorious sinners” [Mark 2:15]. Jesus revealed His heart to “set the captive free” [Luke 4:18] when He told the angry leaders, “Healthy people don’t need a doctor – sick people do. I have come to call sinners, not those who think they are already good enough.” [Mark 2:17]

The truth is, Jesus IS WILLING to help anyone who comes to Him. Yes, He does call us to leave our old life of sin, yet He also offers to give us a new life full of hope and transformation. He has so much better for us. Even if you’re struggling with habitual sin, He still loves you. Romans 5:6 acknowledges that we were “utterly helpless” to overcome our sin. Jesus didn’t die for us because we were wonderful. He died for us because we were a complete mess and had no hope of saving ourselves. Jesus was willing to die for us in our weakest, most sinful state [Romans 5:6-9]. Through His death and resurrection, He broke the power of sin over us. He made a way for us to find freedom from our own sin, and healing from the effects of the sins that others have committed against us.

Maybe you’re thinking that you’ve already tried coming to Jesus a billion times and still you’re stuck in the same sin. Come to Him the billionth and one time. Romans 5:10 encourages us that since Jesus died for us while we were His enemy, He will surely receive us who come to Him surrendered to His mercy. The same Jesus who told His disciples to forgive those who come to them seven times seventy times [Matthew 18:21-22], will surely forgive you. Overcoming is a process. It takes time. Trust Jesus to fulfill His promises to put His laws in our minds so that we can understand them, and write them on our hearts so we will obey them [Hebrews 8:10]. No matter how many times you’ve tried and failed, you can find hope in the promise that He who began a good work in you will be faithful to complete it [Philippians 1:6].

If you’re struggling with sexual sin, the effects of abuse, or are trapped in an abusive relationship, Reconciliation Ministries is here to help. You don’t have to take this journey alone. Our trained caregivers know what it’s like to struggle, and we also know what it’s like to find healing and peace through the grace of Jesus Christ. We’ll walk with you in the struggle to let go of the familiarity of your brokenness, and into a new life of freedom and strength. We’ll walk with you to the presence of Jesus where your wounds are healed, your sins are forgiven, and your character becomes more like His. We’ll walk with you to victory.

If you or someone you know is struggling, call Reconciliation Ministries at 586.739.5114. We offer biblically based licensed counseling, mental health coaching, inner healing prayer, support groups, and so much more. We offer healing and equipping events to train ministry leaders and pastoral staff to minister to those struggling with unwanted LGBTQ attractions, sexual addiction, and abuse. Reconciliation Ministries is here for you. Reach out today.

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Differing Views on Christian Doctrine, Identity and Homosexuality

This article was written by Jason Thompson, Executive Director of Portland Fellowship. Jason also created the diagram that appears with this article. It was first published in the Portland Fellowship newsletter, and was reprinted in this newsletter with permission. The original article is available at https://www.portlandfellowship.com/clarity.php.

When I first began serving at Portland Fellowship, for a believer, the message regarding homosexuality and identity was a bit simpler. For the most part, the Christian message was that we were created male and female, that our identity is found in Christ alone, and that sexual expression outside of marriage (between a man and his wife) is a sin, because it violates God's perfect plan and ultimately leads to pain and destruction.

As the years passed by, and culture, unsurprisingly, continued down a path of confusion and distortion, I have watched many in the church also fall into that confusion. To bring clarity to this confusing issue, this one-page handout was created to bring clarity, which I summarize below.

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On the left side of this handout is the ideology categorized as "Revel: Gay Partnership". These professing "Christians" are gay-affirming and support and bless homosexual unions. The general belief here is that one is born gay/lesbian/bisexual/transgendered or one of the other fifty-four gender options available through Facebook. Their biblical view has been developed by a revision of Scripture in order to support a pro-gay theological understanding.

To the right of this is another camp labeled "Resist: Gay Identity". This group includes professing Christians who primarily believe that a person is born gay, yet believe that same-sex partnerships and sexual expression are prohibited in the eyes of God. Their identity is found in what they feel and desire, and since their desire is for the same gender, they choose to identify as LGBTQ+. A growing movement that includes www.revoice.us has led and continues to lead people in this wrong direction.

In contrast to those two categories, there are two other groups that embrace traditional biblical truth regarding sexual expression and identity. Yet, even in these last two categories, there are some subtle differences in how each group proposes responding to the same-sex attracted person.

We've labeled the first group of proponents for biblical truth and sexuality as simply "Renounce: or Conversion". This group does a great job at communicating that our identity is not found in our sexuality or desires, but in Jesus Christ our Lord. This group highlights our sin nature as the primary issue of sexual struggles and calls everyone to walk in confession, repentance and trust in God as they seek to die to their fleshly desires. They primarily emphasize the importance of Christ's Body (the Church), while they don't necessarily emphasize additional support structures or healing resources (such as counseling or recovery programs). Some in this group actually speak against such resources.

The last category agrees with most of what the "Renounce" position communicates. This final "Rebuild: or Transformation" category also believes that our identity is found in Christ, and that we must repent of our sinful sexual behavior. However, the subtle difference between "Renounce" and "Transformation" is that proponents of "Transformation" recognize the need for an intentional discipleship process that leads us to deeper healing, relational wholeness and even newfound desires that are being restored to what God intended. This process includes support from others in the body of Christ, which can involve counseling, recovery groups, discipleship programs and personal mentoring. It includes a deeper awareness that in addition to being a spiritual and sexual issue, homosexuality is also a relational issue, and therefore has both past relational wounds, but also, more importantly, future relational healing.

As I mentioned, homosexual identity and homosexual expression have become confused through various teachings and different opinions. I believe it is wise to follow what is written in 1 Thessalonians 5:21: "But test everything; hold fast what is good." Let us not settle for anything less than the redeeming work of Jesus Christ and the transforming work of the Holy Spirit in our lives. My hope is that each of us will be able to surrender our sexuality, our identity and our behavior before the Lord, and find our hope in Christ as He continues His transforming work in us! Please share this resource with others and we would love to hear about it.

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